2023-04-04
Moonlight in Spring
To the man whom I love the most,
For days, I’ve been looking for the right words to express my feelings to you. It’s not that there are no good words that could describe you, but you are too good that I can hardly find it. To my sweetest fluff-ppy, I hope I won’t disappoint you because there is so much I would like to say to you and there are not enough words to explain my deepest thoughts about you.
Congratulations for reaching the first month with me, baby. A month of being a couple may not be that long but for that short while, I’ve been able to discover how wonderful a man you are. That’s one of the things I love the most about you. You never fail to show me how much I mean to you. You always treat me someone so special. You, calling me with your sweet made up nicknames makes me feel as the world’s most beautiful. You are the cutest, my baby puppy.
Thank you for entering my life when I least expected it and when I most needed it, for regaining my hope when I’d almost given up on my dreams to find someone with whom I’d share my laughter and tears and with whom I won’t be afraid to be who I truly am. I know, I’m sooooo far from being perfect. I am not a perfect girlfriend. I know but I’d like you to know that I’ll do anything to keep what we have. I cannot afford to lose you, really. I don’t want to put on my mind that someday I’d have to see you walking away from me. You are my love, my brother, my family, my best friend because I can tell you whatever it is I want to tell: my problems, my thoughts, my desires, my dark past, everything. You just have no idea how much I love you, baby. I love everything about you.
It’s still funny sometimes to think of the fact that you were the person I was sending those sweet messages to. Even though we hadn’t seen each other before we met personally, I believe, you’d already caught my heart and it got deeper when I finally met you. You’re so irresistible! I’m sorry if I am sometimes a headache to you. If sometimes, I irritate you and make you upset. I’m also sorry for the things you’re upset about. I pray nothing will come between us even time will keep us apart and people trying to break us up. I’m hoping whatever problems we may encounter in the future trying to bend and break us, we’ll manage to cope and keep what we have now and holding eachother’s hands, always. I I’ll always be true and honest to you. This is my will.
Thank you for believing in me, baby. Thank you warming up my toes when we curled in bed together and for holding me tight in your arms till the morning while sleeping in the most uncomfortable place. And thank you for never forgetting to give me or ask me a good morning kiss the moment you opened your eyes.
I want you to know that as long as I’m in your arms, I’ll always feel protected. I feel like nothing can ever hurt me because you protect me with the power of your love. Our love. I will always protect this giant puppy too, because he is so much like a baby sometimes.
Baby, I will always carry in my soul the feeling of warmth I get when we look each other in the eye, unable to blink or move because I get so mesmerized by it. That feeling will stay with me as long as I live and it will serve as a reminder of our two hearts that have become one. I will always water our love just like a flower and never let it wither, will never become too perfect and that we’ll always love each other the way we are, will continue watching the night sky together while impatiently waiting for the sunrise to replace the moon, will keep contradicting each other and keep being stubborn because it’s just our way of improving things; of improving us. I will always love your weird habits like giving me weird nicknames or making fun of me. I will always love that, just like you love mine. I will always have a special place in my heart for you because you’re not like anybody else I have ever met.
To my dearest love, Gavin Dean, my baby puppy, my sweetest man, my lovely moon and my everything. You’re a dream come true. Thank you for loving me and for making my life a fairy tale. I love you, to the infinity and beyond, and with every heartbeat.
With love,
Your kitten.
It was his light that saved me when the darkness threatened to swallow me whole. The moon to my sun, the light in the darkest night sky.